Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Holidaze

I hate 'em. Well no, just Christmas and New Years to be exact. But with Thanksgiving only a few hours away I gotta put my big girl pants on and remind myself that I have a lot to be thankful for, despite the fact that I complain on a day to day basis about being unhappy with life.

"I wish my parents paid for my tuition, my rent, my car, etc. etc."
At least I still have mine around.

"I wish I could afford to live in a nice apartment."
At least I have a roof over my head.

"I wish I was taller, tanner, had bigger boobs, a flatter stomach, nicer skin, and so on and so forth."
And then I see someone on the bus with a birth defect that has left their face so disfigured it's almost as if they're not real.

I hate that I can act so ungrateful sometimes. It's not that I don't appreciate what I have, I'm just continuously wanting more for myself. I don't just want to be content. I want to be happy.

There are plenty of things that make me smile. But there are only a handful of things that make me happy. Asides from seeing my family grow, making my friends laugh, and falling in love - reading ur comments make me genuinely happy. So this Thanksgiving, I want to thank ALL OF YOU, for reading my blog and making me feel like I have a voice in this big, huge world called the internet. Moreover, for making me feel like my voice actually counts.

I'm so thankful for being able to write exactly what everyone's thinking but just can't seem to articulate. Because I'm STILL the girl who reads something inspiring that someone else wrote and quotes it on my Facebook, or prints it out and hangs it on her mirror as a constant reminder that I am not alone. YOU are not alone.

So Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

And please let me know what ur thankful for, I like to read just as much as I like to write!

5 comments:

conniethegreat said...

Happy Thanksgiving!
And I'm thankful for you and your blog!
Without it, I wouldn't be as motivated and "strong" I guess you can say... as I am now!
:) Have fun :D

PS I ALWAYS quote you on my facebook status!

Ingrid said...

I'm thankful for THIS BLOG. No joke. I check your blog almost everyday (to sound the least stalker haha.) But really, your blog has helped me get through a lot. You always, ALWAYS, always seem to have a blog that relates to something I'm feeling. This is by far MY FAVORITE BLOG. I quote you all the time on my tumblr. So thank you.. thank you for being so smart, and for helping your readers out. You are amazing. xoxo

linh said...

i've been following your blog for a while and i totally love your style and how honest you are!

the line "YOU are not alone" totally made me tear up because alone is exactly how i was feeling. so THANK YOU for making me feel better and realize that there are so many more things i have to be thankful for. =)

DJ CMC said...

blog jackin: id write this in my own...but since u asked:
Things im thankful for:
-having 2 women as my best friends;
one is a married woman with a kid and the other is you abi...two different women, two different lives to steer me in the right direction when it comes to any kind of advice. both of yous are as real as can be, i never knew how i got along without you two!
-my boys; too many to list, yet all are as equally important. like the 2 bbfs i have they are all different, so i can get any view/specture out of any situation. very thankful for all of them
-my fam: it has become more apparent since ive moved out how much my family means to me. living with a family member makes me more thankful that i have someone i can trust and know will always have my back
-last but not least im happy for mistakes. 2009 being a year full of GREAT mistakes in my life. all of which i would have never learned how to deal with people n relationships. although the journey has been a tough and depressing one, i would have never learned to be the person who i am now. and when one door closes 10 more open up! im soo thankful for the experience!

Mouf.Peace said...

all u fuckers make me wanna cry. sorry for the hosility, that's just my lame attempt to un-emo myself. totally didn't work lol. hope yall had an amazing thanksgiving!