Touch Me, Tease me

I've never considered myself to be a flirt. Some may disagree, but I'm very honest when acknowledging what I am and am not. And once again, I am not a flirt.

What I am however, is affectionate with my friends. Girls, guys, gays, doesn't matter. If I care about you and am happy you are in my life, then more than likely I've laid my head on your shoulder when I was tired, kissed you on the cheek hello, or hugged u good-bye 5 seconds longer than I'd hug a mere acquaintance. This doesn't mean I'm lesbian, or that I secretly got the jones in my bones for u. It just means I am comfortable enough with our platonic relationship to link arms with u walking back to the car on a cold night without u thinking we're gonna hook up. (Now of course, if the other person has a gf or I have a bf, or my actions make anyone feel uncomfortable - then air kisses and a pound out of respect will do just fine lol.)

People have the freedom to interpret actions in different ways. And the ironic part about myself, is that me sitting on ur lap is in no way an indication that I'm feelin u in that way. 'Cuz honestly, if I was, I'd probably sit as far away from u as possible. I'd be quiet, and stiff, and seem unapproachable. And only until it's clear our feelings for each other were mutual or we're already together - would I then be able to ease up around u.

So then one might wonder what then defferentiates the way I'd treat my man as opposed to every other dude in my life. Shouldn't there be a clear distinction? Shouldn't certain things be sacred and only shared between 2 people? Of course.

And one of those things (at least for me) is holding hands.

I can tell if I really like someone by how long it takes me to hold their hand, and more importantly, how it feels once I do. I think holding hands is more intimate than even kissing someone. It signifies so much more than grinding on someones crotch on the dance floor, or even having sex. I've had sex with someone whose hand I couldn't hold. So forget about what u think u saw and what u think what u saw means. 'Cuz it's most likely, not even like that.

I don't lead people on, so until the day comes where I hold ur hand (and not just 'cuz I'm too drunk to walk without assistance lol), then I hate to burst ur bubble but its' not even like that. If I'm with someone, u'll know. If I don't like u, u'll know. And if I like u, u'll know. I may not let u put ur arm around me for the first 6 dates lol, but trust me, u'll know. If we've gone out enough times for u to know my favorite hobby, my secret tattoo, the only man I'd ever be a groupie for, what kind of puppy I'd get if I could have one, the names of my 3 closest friends, and u've spoken to my mom on the phone - yet I still haven't kissed u BUT haven't talked about other dudes with u either? Then consider my lack of affection a good thing :)

Unless of course u just stink. Which if that's the case, then this blog means nothing and u def wanna check ur ph balance before making the assumption that I'm feelin u. Thanks.

Say What?! - TGIF Edition

Ok, more like "See What?!" 'cuz I'm hella behind on posting pics from the past months shennanigens. But here's a few from Lot 46 where a bunch of February babies celebrated their birthdays, and the non-incriminating ones (notice how there's only 2 lmao) from Perk and Mateo's welcome back/going away party. Sweaty, good, drunken times. Luh ya both and BE SAFE!

And don't worry, I'll eventually update yall on the MAV show, MAGIC, Vegas, and the Ava shoot as soon as I stay in one place for more than 5 mins lol. It's mufuckin Armageddon outside but try to have a wonderful weekend anyway!

Love Nic!

Me and Kristina lol

Gis I know ur reading this so 1) U were FADED that night, 2) Happy bday again and 3) FLOWER POWER! lol.

Laaaaadies!

2/3rd of the Raunch Monsters plus Dane. Baby-girl sorry for posting this, but I didn't have time to crop yo' ass out. Plus, that's just rude lol.

Me and the BFF

By the way, who is the originator of the "That's what she said?" I swear he needs to be reprimanded ... and then hugged lol.

E: Want half?
A: Naw, I can't eat the big ones, I don't wanna get lipstick on my chin

And yall know the rest lmao.

5 Random Things

As stolen from my Hayati 'cuz I have nothing better to blog about:

1. Today was the first time I washed and brushed my hair since Sunday (And I believe I just felt my male reader count go down from 4 to 3 lol)

2. At work, I only wear 1 shoe while sitting at my desk. Yes, just 1.

3. I name all my favorite electronics. For instance, my G1 phone is Sir Lloyd Banks IV, my DSI is Mee-Thu, and my Mac Book is Frankie Robinson.

4. After droppin a duece, I always wait for it to fully flush 'cuz I do not wanna be the girl who makes the next person who uses the toilet yell, "Ewwwwwww." (And I believe I just felt my male reader count go down from 3 to 2 lol)

5. I've bought Christmas cards for the past 8 years, filled them out, and never sent them. FAIL.

And now it's ur turn, tell me 5 random facts about urself and tag the next person!

Pussy Power

They say life is a constant learning proccess. LMAO. No, I'm serious. I really laughed out loud just now. Meh. If there's anything I've learned these past few weeks, it's that:

• My walls are a lot thinner than I thought (I can hear people breathe upstairs).
• Facebook is boring and Twitter is the anti-christ which is why I'm not on it*
• I can have fun in Vegas while being completely sober - but really, what's the point?
• If u wake up one morning not knowing wtf went on the night before, check ur camera phone. You'll be surprised at what u took that u don't remember.
• I am in the best shape of my life next to high school.

And most of all:

• I am a pussy.

And no, not the kind of pussy that is too scared to jump outta a plane thousands of feet in the air, or the kind that is nowhere to be found when one of their homies is about to get into a fight. I'm talkin about the kind of pussy that sees a cute guy staring at her and runs in the opposite direction or looks for the nearest table to hide under.

It's official: when it comes to the opposite sex, I AM SHY.

Get the fuck outta here right? I know it may seem hard to believe considering some of the topics I write about and how open I am when talking about it, but believe it. See the difference is, once u know me it's a no holds barred of f-bombs, and blow-job talk but I am not the one to get up and introduce myself in a crowded room full of people. Matter fact, I'll probably be the one sitting in the corner looking like a loner. And not 'cuz I think I'm too good to mingle, but 'cuz I'm absolutely mortified. Of what though? I have no idea.

Rach once told me "women don't need game." Alas, I am a waste of woman lol. But just because I am a waste of woman, it doesn't mean u have to be too! So in an attempt to not fail the human race entirely, I'm passing along these tips to the rest of u so that they don't go to a complete waste ('cuz Lord knows I won't use 'em):

1. If you see a dude and think he's cute - TELL HIM! It's harmless. It's like saying "nice shoes," or, "good morning." How many dudes have told u that u were beautiful? This one time ain't gonna hurt the equillibrium of the world.
2. Be accessible - That doesn't mean wear a mini dress with a plunging neckline and no panties while dancing on the bar top. It just means nagivate outside of that corner u've been associating with, be seen, and have fun. If u look like ur having fun, dudes will think ur fun. And what dude doesn't want a fun girl?
3. Don't be scurred of rejection - Ur not asking the dude to marry u. The worst that can happen is they'll make up an excuse to not dance or talk to u. Again, think about how many times one of ur guy friends has hollared at some female and got rejected. It's not that serious. On to the next one ...
4. Which reminds me to remind u - it's not that serious.
5. And the best tip ever? LIQUID COURAGE. Duhhh.

*I recently signed in to FB after not having done so since last year and just as quickly had a friend change my pw on me again lol. As for Twitter, I still have a Twitter assistant tweeting for me lol so sorry if I don't respond to ur DM's!

Eargasm of the Day - Hey Daddy by Usher

And when I walk in all I wanna hear is u say ...

"Daddys home, home for me,
And I know u've been waiting for this lovin all day
U know ur daddys home, and it's time to play,
So u ain't gotta give my lovin away ..."



So all my ladies say, "Hey, hey, hey daddy ..."

Foodgasm of the Day - Biscuits and Blues

I've heard of the famous Biscuits and Blues restaurant and blues lounge for years now but never went even though I'm in Downtown SF 5 days a week. But then I finally made it out for a birthday party, and now I don't know why it took me so long.

Located at 401 Mason (cross st. is Geary), B&B is a really cute date spot if ur open to listening tot he blues. And even if ur not, u can always go just for dinner and drinks. I will warn u though, 20% gratuity is added to everything - even the drinks u buy at the bar. But if u love soulfood as much as I do, then it's all worth it.

I had the chicken and andouille sausage Jambalaya, and split a Southern sampler that consisted of chicken wings, yam fries, corn and shrimp fritters, and macaroni and cheese croquettes (because just plain old macaroni alone isn't unhealthy enough). The Jambalaya was a very good portion for the $17 I paid for, I ended up having to doggy-bag at least half of it. Spicy, but very flavorful. But the BEST part I swear was the deep fried mac & cheese with the dipping sauce they provided:

KL;AJSLDKFJLAKSDJFLSKJDFLSDF. DL;JASDLFK;J.

That's the best way I can describe the taste. Other entrees that made their way to the table that night were the catfish with sweet mashed potatoes (u have the option of fries too). OMG. Helloooooo, y hasn't this been done before? More importantly, y didn't anyone let me know? Next time I come back, I'm definitely ordering this.

My girl Ness ordered the beef brisket. Shit melted in her mouf.

And then of course, no spot that serves soulfood is complete without some good ol' fried chicken.

The chicken was the only thing I didn't try but by the way everyone devoured theirs, I don't doubt it was delicious. I can't wait to try the rest of the menu! And if the above wasn't enough to make u visit Biscuit and Blues, lemme tell u. They serve their fluffy, warm biscuits with marmalade butter. So good the shit should be illegal.

Practice What You Preach

I found a link to a very enlightening article on my girl Kris's page and felt obligated to share it with the rest of u guys. Especially since I'm running on E today and am too tired to write up anything original, what more be creative or witty lol.

I, myself plan on making a thousand copies of it and using it as wallpaper in my bedroom. I've been reading up a lot on Buddhism lately, and although I grew up Catholic I definitely find solace in the Buddhist beliefs. Without sounding like a complete granola eating Hippie - their ideals are based on peace and love. I can definitely dig it and I can definitely use it in my life right now.

The following are a few of my favorite excerpts. Although I definitely suggest reading the entire post here. It's definitely worth it.

#2 Give people the benefit of the doubt.

It's tempting to doubt people ... Sometimes they may be hurtful and mean it ... It will likely be when they are hurting and don't know what to do with it ... If u want to get good will, share it by seeing the best in the people u love. When u assume the best u often inspire it.

#6 Confront compassionately and clearly.

When u attack someone, their natural instinct is to defend themselves - which gets u nowhere. U end up having a loud conversation where 2 people do their best to prove they're right and the other one is wrong. If u approach someone with compassion, u will open their hearts and minds ... And when u let people know what u need at the right time in the right way, they're more likely to give that to u.

#7 Don't be afraid to be vulnerable.

There are all kinds of ways u can feel vulnerable in relationships ... People don't always do these things because they want to maintain a sense of power. Power allows u a superficial sense of control ... vulnerable being allows u a sense of authenticity. That's love: being ur true self and allowing someone else to do the same without letting fear and judgement tear it down.

#8 Think before acting on emotion.

This one is the hardest for me. As soon as I feel hurt, frustrated, or angry, I want to do something with it - which is always a bad idea. I've realized my initial emotional reaction doesn't always reflect how I really feel about something. Initially, I might feel scared or angry - but once I calm down and think things through, I often realize I overreacted.

When u feel strong emotion, try to sit it for a while. When u learn to observe ur feelings before acting on them, u minimize the negativity u create in 2 ways: u process, analyze, and deal with feelings before putting them on someone else; and u communicate in a way that inspires them to stay open instead of shutting down.